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Revived Journal Scratchings - Page 2 Empty Entry 7

Sat Oct 08, 2022 4:03 am

It’s getting chilly. More people are coming to the temple and praying since the renovation finished, and I find myself quite pleased with this fact. My sister hadn’t come back. The incense room could use a bit of sprucing up, and I got approval for that. The Elders offered me some promotion, but wouldn’t you know it; you can’t offer an upgrade to those in the highest positions. So they resigned themselves to giving me more fucking paperwork than I learned how to handle.

Reports still came in about my sister, but they grew sparse since I yelled at someone giving me a report, “You’re telling me that she is spending time with a patchwork man’?” I had to re-read and say aloud some parts of the report to him in my office while my aide watched with sympathy. I threw the folder down. There was nothing worse on a good day than a fucking incompetent subordinate. I gently rubbed the bridge of my nose between my thumb and forefinger and applied some slight pressure to release the tension of a headache that I knew was incoming because I was irritated. “Why don’t we…start over?” I offered and picked up my tobacco pipe while Hena came over and offered a butane lighter to light up the fresh produce I put into the meticulously cleaned bowl, “Read your report out loud from memory.” The priest hesitated,

“T-The report is about a patchwork man having been seen with Lady Genesis.” The visiting priest offered, and I countered sharply,

“Now repeat it. Slowly. So that you understand how ridiculous that sounds.” I said, and he repeated himself, but I wasn’t satisfied, “These reports are significant to me, and you believe that you are in the right for embellishing them?”

“I’m not embellishing them!” The priest protested in his defense, but still, I wasn’t happy,

“Then this ‘Patchwork Man’ must have a name, correct?” I asked, and the priest nodded, “...Well, go on then, tell me his name.”

“I… Don’t know his name.” Oh my fucking god. How was I supposed to stomach more time dealing with this type of intelligence? I took a deep breath and then exhaled. Then I took a few short puffs of my pipe as I stared him in the eyes. He began to fidget and squirm uncomfortably. Good.

“So you would like to submit a report… about a ‘patchwork man’ whom you do not have a name for, being seen with Lady Genesis?” I asked slowly, and he shuffled awkwardly, “Answer me.”

“I-I’m pretty sure he has a name.” The reporter answered quietly,

“If I didn’t know any better, I would suspect that you had no respect for me or the position I hold within this temple as you are so blatantly willing to lie to me. Not only to my face but on paper as well.” I said, and he flinched. Good. I wouldn’t say I like those beneath me to feel too comfortable around me. “Are you conspiring with that monk who was excommunicated because he gave me a displeasing report? Is that what you are also seeking?” “No, ma’am!” “While I am not a monster, I am more than happy to indefinitely find a way to separate you from the temple.”

“No, I did see him.” The priest countered, and I dem, anded,

“WHERE?” The priest flinched, and even Hena looked fazed, but I wasn’t. I was allowed outbursts. “Where did you see him then? Behind a glass case in the village’s haunted antique shop?” I demanded, and when he stammered and stumbled for an answer, I picked up the folder and tossed it back at him. Thankfully he caught it so that he didn’t make a bigger idiot. “I’m re-assigning you to filter out reports like YOURS- that have no grounds in reality- before they are submitted to me again. Now get out.” He bowed and hastily left, but he was kind enough to shut the door behind him.

What an awful start to my afternoon. I took a few long drags on the pipe to calm down before I said, “Fucking honestly. It’s almost like they heard she had a dragon, and they decided it was free game to submit any wild claim and hope it stuck.” I grumbled mainly to myself, and Hena added,

“He forgot to include the doctor.” I looked at her, and she looked back at me, “Well, since he wanted to submit a report about Frankensteins’ monster, he should have at least included some mention of the doctor who made it.”

I started laughing, genuinely laughing, more than I had in the almost two years since I took this position and began playing this role. If my chair hadn’t been level with the floor, I would have cackled my way off it by falling off the side. Having made a more vital and trusting bond with Hena was nice. I didn’t give her all my secrets, but I allowed her to know what I was doing. I was pretty sure she was now reporting what I was doing to another Elder, so I had to be diligent that they got the information I wished to share.

Once I composed myself, I was h, anded another report and asked, while I smiled, “What’s this?”

“To sum it up? She passed the exam after the exam.” Henna said, and I opened it, looking over the report, and took another draw of my pipe. The report indicated that my sister had found and sought another way to achieve a promotion by doing more missions and some…book reports. Well, it seemed to be more along the lines of a type of essay evaluating another village. How clever. I scoffed and smirked, “Is something wrong?”

“Yes, and no.” When I closed the report, I advised, “The shinobi seem smarter than I was anticipating.”

“In what way?” Henna asked before nervously following it with, “Will it affect the temple?” I took another drag from the pipe,

“It seems the type of ‘book report’ she was asked to do- if this report is accurate and reliable- way to detail the defenses of a neighboring shinobi community- A ‘Village,’ like ours-but included how the village contributes to the world, and how the village would contribute to this one if Hoshigakure established trade routes.”

“That seems more aligned with something a military would take care of?” Hena asked, and I nodded, exhaling another biting smoke of lung-poisoning tobacco,

“Right. The problem, however, is that there is no military, but there are the Shinobi, which seem to serve as the military. It is not entirely of consequence now. However, this could affect us later.” I asked. I doubt they would outright attack us, but it was a very slim doubt as the temple generally detested them. However, it seems the consequences of my actions were now rearing their head, “The problem could very well be that they wish more from the order to be in their ranks.”

“Well, that’s not a problem since they haven’t asked for anyone, right?” Henna asked, and I frowned.

“They did not need to, per se, not when I offered them up. We have an exchange program. It’s keeping them happy for now. However, the problem lies in me: I enacted the program and gave way for the Shinobi to have access to the clergy. They can always lean on the program to justify their actions, and since the peace needs to be kept, we will oblige, and they will have the bodies they need to fill the gaps in their forces and makeshift military.” Way to fucking go, Nozomi. I had mastered being able to be three steps ahead of my peers yet four steps behind the Shinobi.

“I...I didn’t realize that.” Henna murmured, and I nodded,

“Perhaps I am being hypervigilant; maybe the purpose of those reports is to get a variety of perspectives, and opinions on a common problem, so the shinobi have different ways to handle it for the low price of free-ninety-nine.” I took another long drag from the pipe and let it sit in my chest. It burned, and I could feel the cracking and hissing. I could hear the shriving of healthy tissue in my ears. Then I exhaled again to stop the self-torture.

“Then I should get a list of the c, candidates we chose for the program, right?” Henna offered, and I shook my head in a ‘no’ fashion.

“No. Place take the day tomorrow to work with the other priests, and get me a list of which c, candidates have taken missions within the last- let’s say, 60 days. Then, please go through the village obituaries and the hospital morgue records, if you can, but take a list of c, candidates who we did loan out initially if you can, and a copy of their hospital records if they were admitted since the program began. Use my name as much as you need, if you need.” That should be enough, but why did I feel like I forgot something? Should I look up land leases and properties? No…the Shinobi wasn’t known to stay in one place too often.

“That’s…A lot.” Henna said, and I nodded and clarified that I had given her a day, “What is all of it for?”

I needed it to know the average lifespan of a shinobi. “Medical purposes.” That wasn’t entirely a lie, so I’m sure the Sage would forgive me when I was dead. “I want to know how taxing the shinobi ways are on those unfamiliar.” That was most definitely a lie, “You are dismissed for the day, Henna.” She left, and when she shut the door behind her, I took a drag of the pipe, and looked at the ceiling, trying to think of that urgent and vital thing on the tip of my tongue, that I couldn’t quite recall that I needed to be looked into, in addition to that information. Oh. I know now. “MIA” statuses. Missing in action. I should have asked her to look for missing action among our candidates. Oh well. The amount of work I had charged her with should keep her busy and garnered some results, but as I exhaled and anxiously tapped my nails on my desk, I glanced at the file for the most recent report. I opened it back up and looked it over. “Ah.” A name stuck out, familiarly unfamiliar. Ayato Hyuuga. “Here you are again, sir.”

What did he look like again? At the Chunnin exams, he was the black-haired and fair-skinned one, wasn’t he? What were those assholes say that their ‘patchwork man’ looked like? I opened a drawer in my desk, pulled out one of the earlier files, and found the one I was looking for, skimming it. There were two whole sentences regarding my lower-ranking priest’s boogeyman. ‘Pale hair, pale skin.’ That wasn’t him unless somehow he had changed; who knows with the shinobi witchcraft could and could not do? I carefully tucked that report into the drawer where it slumbered, closed it, and looked at the recent one. “You were a part of her team, too, weren’t you?” I asked of the paper tiger on this report, but there was no answer, so I was mainly speaking out-load to myself to jog my memory. He most certainly was with that…Miyamoto Terumi, wasn’t it? It’s too close. I’m not too fond of it. “You are showing up too often for me, Ayato Hyuuga.”

What to do, what to do? How would I h, handle this situation? I wanted to be angry still about the fact that my sister had been- unfairly, in my opinion- not allowed to pass their exam. However, she had found another path to it, and the report stated that it had been Ayato Hyuuga who lent a hand in her completion of the report. I can’t be mad at him for canceling out a misdeed with a good one, can I? That would promise me lousy karma, and things were beginning to get off track regarding my plans. I took a few moments in the almost silence of my office, which had only the white noise of my tobacco slowly burning in its bowl, and the anxious ‘tik-tak’ of my manicures nails on the desktop. What was I even meant to do about this? Was this another test from the Sage for my impertinence of imposing and forcing my workings instead of allowing the natural flow of the Grand Design and his intentions?

I’ve been impertinent my whole life, so I don’t think he will mind another five years or so. Still, what was I supposed to do?

I couldn’t leave the temple freely since I was still playing this part, and I had to make sure that I did it well and precisely, lest someone realized I was a scheme or, better yet: figured out I was a bit of a spy. As thrilling as the aspect of getting caught was, and as excited as I became, teetering on that fine line between ‘devotion’ and ‘destruction,’ it most definitely did not help me with things as they were. “Izayumi, do you always have to make trouble for me?” I asked the night as I took a drag of my pipe.
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Revived Journal Scratchings - Page 2 Empty Entry 8

Sun Oct 09, 2022 3:14 am
Two years.


It had been two years, and no one had heard from her. 


At first, it started with those giving me reports on her outings and activities. They had been a day or two late and had once numbered eight. Within a week, they dropped to three, and then in a single night, those last there were found dead in their homes. It may have been quiet, but the message was loud and relayed. 


Someone did not want the reporting to go on. 


At first, the idea seemed quite far-fetched, you know, that someone had killed them. It had started quietly, and only others within our order were able to find the bodies. I didn't give it much thought until the second night the first one didn't report to me. Then it became a 'pattern,' and even that term was used loosely, but these facts applied to the constants in each case. The variants were how many were killed nightly. The way it started and stopped was consistent enough to let me know it was one person. 


They would give me their report. I would thank them and dismiss them. They would go home. For some reason or another, they would not return the next day, and some had that day off, so its connection went unnoticed. When they didn't show up the second day, others would go and look for them only to get to their home- on temple grounds, no less- and find them dead. Nothing was ever out of place, but we were always a day or two late. It rattled those who knew of it, but I was pissed. Do you know how long it took me and how I had to manipulate them to get them to spy on my twin sister and give me those reports in the first place? I took it as an attack and made sure to respond quickly: I ordered autopsies in the same breath I ordered the witnesses to stay silent while 'The Elders handled it.' Actually, I handled it and told my equal-rank peers I would take charge of it. 


When it happened, my assistant and her aides had finally collected all the paperwork I had asked for, from the obituaries to the medical notes and the missions, but that had to play second fiddle since they took priority. That infuriated me. That meant that whether I resolved this crisis the day it happened or a month later, all that information would be outdated and useless to me. If I weren't so goddamn busy, I would have chewed my nails down to the nailbed. That was just the first one.


It seemed the mysterious killer and I was both waiting for the same thing: the temple coroner's autopsy report. Their cause of death was labeled as 'cardiac arrest. Their lungs and organs showed signs of damage that he hadn't seen before, and he couldn't properly identify it other than it was most likely shinobi witchcraft. How fucking troublesome. It seemed like things weren't going my way since the Chunnin Exam took place, yet I took this information to the other elders and reported it. "What should we do?" Well…nothing.


I wanted to do nothing because those informants were expendable. That's why I chose them. With the intention in mind that when they served their purpose, I would kill them myself, but it seems someone intended to rob me of that too; had the shinobi not stolen me of enough already? Were they taking my rightful kills from me too? The informants had still been so helpful, but I picked them from our order's lower rankings and rungs so they would not damage the hierarchy or the overall flow of the temple if they "just happened" to die. What could the shinobi gain from this, though? What could they gain from shaking up things like this? Finding vulnerabilities in the temple couldn't be possible because they could see that without killing a priest. "I think we should keep this between us," I advised, and another Elder demanded,


"The clergy deserves to know!" This one had always been the one who disliked me the most, so I expected the back-talk, and I expected this answer, so I took advantage of him and leaned into it.


"You're right. The clergy SHOULD know about this, but what would you like me to tell them? The autopsy report says this priest died of cardiac arrest, and we need to be honest with ourselves: we have no evidence outside this report. The home was untouched, and there was no sign of a fight. The murderer killed them on our property too." I offered,


"It could be the Shinobi!" The expected counterargument,


"And yet we have no evidence of that." Which was true- we had nothing but speculation. "What do you want from me, Elder Kaan? Do you seriously expect me to approach the shinobi with this accusation, and we have nothing to back it, but show them that we are rattled by this and threaten the fragile truce we have? After I worked to put the program in place and build them a school as a sign of goodwill?" The other Elders looked weary, but that's where I thrived—playing off their unsureness and indecisiveness, as I had for so long. "We will keep this to ourselves. If something else happens while I investigate, we keep it to ourselves. When we find a culprit, we will tell the clergy. Right now, we can say they died in their sleep until we have an answer."


"What of the clergy?" Another asked,


"We can't tell them quite yet; they are already on edge, and if we tell them, it will only make them skittish and paranoid: the workflow of the order will no longer be upheld properly, and if that happens, the only thing we can do is count the days until someone slips up and gets killed by a shinobi again, such as when I first made the program. If that happens, then what? We offer more members of the order to the shinobi to sate them, or they will turn on us, perhaps out of frustration. Either way, our authority is challenged and questioned." I sighed and handed off the report, "The best course of action is the least favorable: We keep those involved quiet as we try to resolve this internally. If we bring this failure to light, it may give less amendable shinobi ideas that they, too, can sneak in and kill us in some twisted way to 'ease tensions."


"So…either way, we are losing, it seems." Another voiced and agreed to let me take care of everything, as did the others. After all, for how much they talked and spoke of shouldering burdens, they shrugged it off to someone else, but that's what I wanted.


As long as I had control over the situation, there was no real need for them or anyone else.


More of my little birds came up dead, steadily in all the same ways. No one else in the clergy was killed. Just the informants and little spies I had, watching over my sister. It spoke for itself several things, but mainly it seemed to be someone toying and showing what they could do,  how easily they could do it, and how they could get away with it. Finding records of everything in real-time hadn't been too hard; however, it was the last three that took the cake. 


It was the last day the murderer killed any of them since the last of my watchers had been killed that night, but there was never another incident for two years. I looked through records as time passed and took my time, following a list of shinobi and the timelines. Around the time that the last three had been killed, four shinobi had 'defected'- they left without permission and were labeled traitors of the state, so to speak. There was no evidence to nail any of them, but I narrowed it down to just one name out of those four. However, when I went to look up that name?


There was no record. As if that person hadn't existed. 


They seemed to cross paths with the teammate who rarely showed up. The phantom left the same night as those murders. Perhaps they knew they were being watched and decided to cut out the eyes I had, then got bored before they left. No loose ends? Either way, they were most likely involved with my twin sister since it was only those informants he killed. Could it have been a paramour, perhaps? What if it had been that Ayato Hyuuga? Well- I was informed that he had been busy moving up the ranks, so there was that. Besides, there didn't seem to be a reason for him to go that far, but shinobi and their witchcraft honestly had no end. 


But two years of silence? And my hands were full with this fuckery and the resulting paperwork. Oh god, the paperwork. By the time I was finished, it had been two damn years, and I finally had the time to go over that old paperwork from the prior years; it was only as helpful as it could have been in that time, not in the present tense. I was even getting an updated list of candidates we had provided, foretelling a troubling outcome. It seems that the shinobi often had injuries; some took a while to recover, but they rarely lived past 30. That was the median average age. 30. 


No one had heard from my sister in 2 years. Time did not seem to be on my side. Not even the environment was on my side after my informants were killed, and they had grown to suspect I had swept the issue under the rug. That only meant that they shied away from allowing any chance of me asking them to replace the avoided and private roles, but they weren't going to accuse me with no evidence outright. 


That night I went to my room and decided to try smoking since I hadn't done so in two years. What was I supposed to do now? How was I supposed to operate if my sister wasn't in sight for me to watch over? Even my pipe wasn't working for me- the packages of tobacco I could find had all gone wrong, and when I decided to begrudgingly pack a bowl with some of it out of sheer desperation, I stood on the wooden walkway and flicked the lighter.


It awoke on the silver inner lining of its pretty case and winked at me before dying. Odd. It wasn't a windy night, so there was no need for my lighter to go out. Pipe in one hand and lighter in another, I flicked against the lighter's ignition gear with my thumb again, and there wasn't even a spark. I shook it lightly, and I didn't hear the sloshing of liquid, but even looking at it closer, it seemed the lighter was also dried out. I usually forbid myself from emotional outbursts, but I snapped and gripped the light, rewinding my arm before angrily chucking it into the space in front of me. I grit my teeth as I watched it arc and hit the top of the wall separating my courtyard from the rest of the temple, then watch it bounce off and vanish into the night sky behind the wall. I didn't hear a sound. 


A fucking terrible omen. That's the only thing I could truly recognize in this series of events.


From the way my informants were killed to the time wastes, to my sister's lack of whereabouts and then to this absolute bullshit of everything being dry in my room, it was all ridiculous, but I couldn't tell the future and jumping to assumptions and conclusions would be of no great help to me. Hopefully, one day, I could fight the Sage in hand-to-hand combat for this poor hand he dealt me but until then?


It was me, my irritation, my dried-out pipe, and my two friends in a temple.

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Revived Journal Scratchings - Page 2 Empty Entry 8.5

Mon Oct 10, 2022 3:53 am
No one had told her. No one had told Baliquis that her sister had died, much less that they had lost her body. They all knew and stayed quiet until they finally retrieved the body and brought it to the temple. She would have blown up at the loss of anybody since her reasoning was sound: “They are dead; you can’t misplace someone who isn’t moving.” She had been assisting in funeral preparations since the priestess who primarily did it had fallen ill, and that’s how she found out. On accident. Or rather:

She found out when she walked into the room with the body and saw her twin sister in the wooden casket.

A clipboard had been handed off when she entered the prior room, but the team of stead-fast funeral staff who aided the primary priestess would bless the body in water. They all stood there to play audience to her looking at the corpse numbly. They all watched as Baliquis looked at the paperwork on the paperwork that confirmed this woman was the priestess previously known as ‘Lady Genosis.’ They stood by and waited awkwardly for orders as the stand-in priestess seemed to hesitate before one nudged another sharply in their ribs, causing that one to pipe up, “Shall we proceed?”

Baliquis looked up from the paperwork and looked at the staff member, but they all saw the blankness in her eyes. “Pardon me?”

“Shall we proceed with the funeral rites?” The person who nudged their peer asked, and then she looked back at the clipboard and said instead.

“Yes…please leave the room so I may bless the body,” she said, and the team followed since this was part of a typical funeral process, but that was not the case today as the stand-in priestess remained, smoothly walking over to the side of the casket but looking straight ahead. Even when she planned her manicured hand and its gleaming grey nails on the side edge of the wooden casket, even though she asked them to leave the room to bless the body, she didn’t.

Blessing the body in this casket would give finality to the reality she wanted so desperately to be a lie. Still, she timidly scratched the tips of her nails up and down the length-wise wood grain against the inside of the box. The soft scraping against the wood echoed in this room, and it was just enough to give validity to its actual existence. Sufficient to ground the priestess but not enough to stop the dam from breaking. She tossed the clipboard into the box and on top of the woman’s chest before snatching her hand away, wheeling around and storming out of the smaller room and striding towards the larger room’s massive double doors. The ones with the metal braces built into the walls next to their doorframe in case of siege so that the women and children could be safe within this room at least. Beside it was the heavy, lacquered, and mainly symbolic, in-case-of-emergency wood bar meant to nestle perfectly in those brackets.

The same wood bar that Baliquis picked up and re-adjusted in her arms perfectly. One of the aides noticed the same one when all of them were giving her a moment and standing in the hallway- ready for her to call out to them and call them back to the funeral room. “My lady!” One exclaimed as the others looked and were alerted to the situation, but they were just a fraction of a second too late as Baliquis kicked the only open door between both closed by planting her foot into the sturdy wood. She dropped the beam into its housing and turned her back to the lower-ranked priests and priestesses banging on the door. She went back to the funeral room as the panicked clergy alerted others to try and get the door open. Baliquis stopped in front of the wooden casket and looked in.

Her twin sister lay dead there. Cold. Grey. Lifeless. Silence is embodied instead of saintism.

As they tried to force the door open, those in the hallway all flinched as an ear-drum-piercing roar erupted from the barricaded room and then stopped. Another loud, piercing sound burst came from behind the door that ended in an anguished wail as Baliquis fell to her knees next to the casket. She stopped, only to pant and catch her breath from the out-of-practice excursion- before she screamed in pain once more. They didn’t have words, but they did not need to. There were no words to spare for the primal, instinctual understanding of La Llorona, the mother who lost her children and endlessly searched for them, nor words to describe the foreign understanding of the wailing. The listlessness of it. The desperation. The once-in-a-lifetime sound of hurt that can never be replicated, never be healed, yet always terrified to feel. Even as she cried, Baliquis did not stop unless she needed to breathe.

By the time she lost most of her voice, and her throat grew hoarse, scratchy, and dry, she resorted to sobbing instead. She stood up and snatched the clipboard from the corpse, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to toss this on you-” For a moment, she lived. For a whole moment, her twin sister wasn’t dead, she lived, and when Baliquis looked over for confirmation, the corpse greeted her with still unmoving poise. “I…” She looked forward and put her head against the clipboard’s unsteady existence. Every part of her shook as she breathed, “Say something.” Baliquis whispered, “Please.” She choked another sob, “Do not let all of this… have been a waste. Please.” Baliquis sobbed behind the clipboard and slowly sank back to her knees, “I… I made a mistake. I’m sorry. Everyone does it. I can’t just- have this one?” Baliquid said, and the room met her with the silence she knew wouldn’t answer her, but life only ever meant this stage of grieving for begging.

“It was… a mistake sending you to the Shinobi; I know that now but please.” She dropped the clipboard and grabbed the casket’s edge, nails scratching the insides deeply, “Please, do not leave me here. I don’t belong here.” She sobbed shamelessly, helplessly, and small. “I made a mistake. I’m sorry. I’m sorry!” Her screeching last apology did not help, and it was promptly punctuated by other priests and priestesses falling upon her as they grabbed her and tried to pull her away from the casket, “GE-GET OFF ME!” Baliquis screamed.

It took ten of them to pull her away from the funeral rites room. Two other aides had to go to the infirmary because of the bruises they got while she fought back against them; another had to be carried to the same wing because she had clutched his throat so hard he had passed out and now held a bruise that would not die for weeks. In contrast, two more were getting treated with Neosporin from deep gashes she had given them when she backslid from bargaining to the prior stage of grief- Rage. Baliquis had to be sedated against their practices and beliefs, and the infirmary doctors cleared her to be brought back to her room to rest.

Hysteria and grief have a funny way of twisting and tormenting the mind and subtly side-stepping reality. Rationality becomes fluid in those mindsets, applicable to things that shouldn’t and plausible in cases where it holds starch opposition.

Baliquis slept until the next day, and she was checked on and looked over for any remnants of hysteria, but the others of the temple didn’t see it. Or rather, they didn’t pick up on it because she had buried it like so many other years. They cleared her as ‘healthy,’ and they wrote off her abrupt outburst of irrationality because none of them had ever been present to see such a thing before, so it was foreign. It didn’t exist in this world of peace and prosperity that she seemed to take in and reflect wholeheartedly but ‘reflect’ and ‘replicate’ are two different things. They even allowed her to return to the preparation room to complete her task over her sister’s dead body.

By now, it had been four years since she had heard anything about her sister and Baliquis dutifully went over the body with another aide or two. They took notes while Baliquis swallowed her aches and listed them off numbly, but the wound was still fresh and festering. She took several breaks to collect herself, and the process took longer than it should have. There were only two things left: correctly record and draw out the strange tattoos inside her sister’s forearms and call someone more substantial than her to lift the body into the cremation chamber.

You see, the cremation process consisted of six steps. Firstly the deceased was identified, and Baliquis could do that as her twin, and the other priests could see the relation. Secondly, the procedure had to be authorized, and Baliquis approved it; plus, the temple already had its cremation process and authorization for it and those that requested it. Thirdly, there was the preparation of the body which was another part of the process Baliquis streamlined by doing herself. Fourthly, there was putting the body in a combustible vessel strong enough to bear the incoming weight change, then in the cremation chamber, which was also known as a “retort” and exposed to extreme temperatures- up to 1800 degrees Fahrenheit- so that the only thing left was ashes. Next was the fifth and often not-mentioned process of finalizing the remains by removing metals and non-organic materials from the ashes- then further grinding the human remains in a specialized processor into the official and resulting ashes which would be presented to the family or loved ones. Then the last step was the more favored, picking out urns and returning the ashes to the family. This time, Baliquis would not share the final stage with the family. Not entirely.

Did you know that the whole cremation process itself only takes 2 to 3 hours? It depends on the policies in place, but it could also take seven to ten business days to turn around.

The aides had left for the day, and Baliquis was left with the body in the retort room. After the aides had wheeled it over there, she stood there in silence, looking at the body and then at the vessel it needed not be placed in to burn it. “Elder Baliquis.” A voice spoke up behind her, and she turned her head to the sound, “Is it possible that the body can be seen?”

“By who?” She asked, and the other person replied,

“We have two children and their guardian, claiming they are the children of the deceased, wishing to see the body.” Baliquis had never heard of any children.

“Bring the children and alert the guardian we allow them a day to visit and mourn.” Baliquis said as she smiled back at the other person, “We will house them and alert the other Elders to my decision.” the attendant carried out the orders as always, but Baliquis was left alone with the body.

And with the children when the attendant brought them to her. She watched them from the opposite side of the vessel and watched as they cried and sobbed, but she offered no condolence. Why should she? The longer she stared at the children, her anger and disgust rose. Neither of them even seemed to be hers- there were features in similarity with Baliquis, her sister, and their other family members- but the children didn’t have the heaven-hued hair or even the steel-blue eyes when at their most rested point. They were bastards. That’s all she could think about, and her trance was broken when one of them asked, “When is she coming back?” Then a thought occurred to Baliquis. Her sister was alone now- without their family who all lived. She was alone on the other side. It would be nice if she had some company, wouldn’t it?

As Baliquis pulled away from the vessel, she opened the door to the retort and turned on the mechanics for the gas. With the door open, the retort chamber wouldn’t contain it. It would leak into the rest of the room. Baliquis moved away from the door, went over to the table of medical supplies used to clean the body, and picked up a clean rag, covering her mouth with it slightly, “I’m sure she’s waiting for you two…this must be so hard on you.” Baliquis said and only removed the rag to speak but otherwise covered her mouth. She walked past the two small children and to the singular set of double doors in the medium-sized room before lowering the rag again, “I’m sorry; I’ll give you some privacy so you can grieve in peace.”

With that, she exited the room and shut the doors. She was locking the handle from the outside.

As she exited the area where the cremation facility was, which only had one way in and one way out, she went into a room about 100 meters away that gave way to a hallway where other priests stood by for her orders. Baliquis lowered the rag to speak again, “You are both dismissed for the day; on the way out, please let someone know that the body of the late priestess needs to be put into the cremation vessel.” They nodded and walked off, and Baliquis walked in the other direction. It would be cruel to allow Izayumi to be alone for too long.

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Tue Oct 11, 2022 3:07 am
The Grand Design works in waves, for it is an endless series of opening and closing doors, shifting and reorganizing, moving and ever-changing. There is not one set way it works. It operates in perpetuity, and yet it is consistent and reliable. You can whole-heartedly place your trust in this intangible unknown workings because it will never falter and break. Never will it reach out to change someone's interpretation of its workings or mysteries, but to anyone who wills it? They can use it to validate just about everything and give justification to just as much.

Every failure. Every victory. Every mistake. Every accidentally acquired knowledge.

I, too, will give credit to it for all I have received, for it had been a long journey.

Seven years, to be exact, of actively and doggedly pursuing all that I needed and sought. All that I deserved; was freely given to me or ripped out by way of me cutting off all other exits ad escape routes that led anywhere other than to me. I don't like leaving things so 'open-ended.' I prefer tied-up loose ends if there need to be any loose ends at all.  

My virtues have never rested in being graceful or pure and pious; I have never been entirely kind, not because a cruel world formed me. It has always been there and active. I had no interest in fighting the inevitable from the start because it was a waste. Why spend that energy fighting against a river that can ferry me to where I need to be so effortlessly, as the Sage walked upon the water? It continued underneath him but made way for him all at once. Why should I be kept from that too?

I gave up my family seven years ago so that my sister had the path to gain what she did without the hindrance of the temple and its wants, its ideals, because who better to bare teeth at them than one of their own? I never expected her to return to the temple or the order—quite the opposite. I had viciously and actively worked towards her exile, step by step, stone by stone, word by word, and signature. That's what helped ease me.

People left the order and started families while I resided in this bubble where time seemingly slowed, and I existed more in the past than I did in the present. Even smoking wasn't enough to appease me, and I gave that up. I earned more joy because we would both be out of her soon than smoking on that pipe.

Every dream I had was about that exiling and how the first breath of freedom would look or feel for her.

"What happened?" Another Elder questioned me as I stood before them in the cremation room. "How could you let this happen?"

"I am trying to perform my duties to the best of my ability through this difficult time," I said as I was trying to think of something. I couldn't manipulate my way out of this too well, but if this is what the Grand Design deemed, then I would have to trust in its process because it had already laid out my hand for me this morning-

"If you hadn't left the children alone, someone wouldn't have come in and killed them!" The elder yelled, and I nodded, "Why didn't you take them to grieve with you?"

"They said they wanted alone time with their mother; how was I supposed to know that the clergy could not be trusted in my absence when I have trusted them for so long?"

This morning, the attendant who the attendant meant to move my sister's body from the slab to the casket to be cremated came in to find that the two children who had come earlier were dead and on the floor. The doors entering the room were unlocked, and there seemed to be no disturbance as all the retort chamber doors were shut, and their gas lines were closed tight. The attendant reported the deaths to the Elders, who had come to my room and woken me up, then proceeded to have this tribunal with me in the room. The bodies were still on the floor. "What are we going to do?" The Elders put on even the process of cremating my sister on hold.

"We should have an autopsy done." I offered, and they all looked at me, "I-I know that I am at fault here. I want to do everything I can to make this right to make up for my mistakes." I needed to lean into the emotional side of things to make everything more plausible. I needed an autopsy done, and I needed to cremate them too. Those were the goals now; hiding my evidence effectively.

At the bare minimum, I needed to hide my sister's disastrous and abominable secret children from the whole temple and the shinobi. Who knows what witchcraft they would use their bodies for and who knows what they could or could not do with my sister's body? I had to beat them to the punch and burn them all as quickly as possible to snuff out opposition and opportunities. I'll be damned if someone pulled another fast one on me as they did to my informants in the first place.

"We would need permission from the family, at least from their father." One of the Elders said, and I nodded, "Didn't someone claiming to be their guardian come in?"

"Right, but he didn't look entirely similar to them…" Another Elder said, and I piped up,

"Perhaps it would be best if I put in the request to get their birth certificates?" They looked at me, "It may be more acceptable if her family requested it. We could hold off until then-"

"No." Another Elder said, "If we hold up, we will only be prolonging the pain; An autopsy can be arranged for today, and hopefully, these children can be laid to rest with their mother and save us extra resources by running the retort twice."

"That won't be possible." Another Elder said, "We have only prepared one burial plot- we would need at least another day to prepare two more for the children." I stood there and listened to them work it out amongst themselves.

"It would be unwise to cremate them before their remailing family has a say- did that guardian leave anything behind to contact him? If we had an address, perhaps we could send someone? Maybe a phone number?" Another Elder offered while the attendant from yesterday night advised that the man had indeed left an address but no phone number.

"I believe reducing Elder Baliquis's duties, for now, would be best so there are fewer mistakes; elder Baliquis, since you want to take responsibility for this incident, you would be willing and able to write the letter to this guardian and alert them of the children's passing?" One asked, and I nodded,

"Anything I can do, I will," I replied, and honestly, it wasn't a lie. I was willing to do anything. "Since time is of the essence, if we don't get a reply within two days, it would be best to move ahead with the funeral proceedings, and I will take responsibility for this… Perhaps if I had a larger staff to assist me and prevent any more mistakes while I'm not in my right mind."

"It seems we are all on the same page, then. Please take care of this quickly then, Elder Baliquis." I nodded and waited for them to all leave me alone with the attendant from the night before. I turned to them and asked that the address be brought to my office before I left them to put the children's bodies in their caskets. Hena was waiting for me outside the office already and was aware of the situation,

"Hena, please go and get the birth certificates of those children and use the birth name of Lady Genosis- Izayumi Hozuki." I told her, and she went to do so, but in the meantime, the attendant returned with the address that the 'guardian' had left behind. I dismissed the attendant once he gave it to me, and I was alone in my office when I realized the Grand Designed opened another door for me. The Guardian did the address in pencil on a ripped-out piece of scratch paper. Firstly- who the fuck left their information like this? Anyways, I moved my thumb a bit over one of the numbers and looked at the ceiling.

Was I going to be forgiven for this? Ever in life? I had the distinct, painful feeling I would experience horrendous karma for what I was about to do.

But fuck the Sage; if he did not want this, he would not have ruined everything.

So anyways, I took out a piece of paper from my desk drawer and a pen and started writing a formal letter- one that Hena walked in and saw me writing- that politely informed their unidentified guardian of the fact that their children were dead. We of the temple would need them to come in to identify the bodies. I even had Hena look it over to make sure she could report it to the others. I was 'actively trying to make up for my faults. She handed it back, and I folded it up before producing an envelope from the drawer and looking at the address. The one I smudged to show a different and incorrect number. I wrote it on the outside of the envelope, put the letter in, sealed it, and then handed it off to Hena. When the door to my office shut behind her, I smiled.

The letter would go to the wrong address. It would probably be on the tail end of the two days by the time they got it. Even if that person came in to say the address was wrong, the children's 'guardian' would still not be here. Maybe he would figure it out and decide to come to the temple himself… most likely three or four days from now.

I would have the whole set if he also died of 'shock' in the form of a cardiac arrest. The entire little faux family unit she had made for herself of a stand-in partner and two bastard children.

Wouldn't it be nice to bury them all together?

I left my office and waited until nightfall before going to the cremation room and looking around for my sister's body. I found it, and the night attendant looked at me nervously, "I'll oversee the cremation so that I might sign off on it." They looked wary of me and my presence, but I didn't care. The opinions of those beneath me meant nothing.

I watched as the attendant left the room and came back with my sister in the casket on a wheeled table, pushing it deftly into the room and opening a retort door. There were no movements from me as they lifted the box and planted it on a retracting mechanic system that would push the casket in and pull it out when the process was done. The attendant pressed a button that made the mechanics under the casket jerk to life before pushing it into the chamber fully- they paused to shut the door and locked it- then turned on the mechanics for the gas, which filled the section. I flinched when he pressed another button that ignited the gas and began the fiery process of dissolving the body.

I don't know how I would cope with this, but nothing made me feel better than knowing I was bearing witness to her body being incinerated.

Now? No one could use her again.

I don't know how long it would take me or what I would do, but I would make sure that there would be retribution and repentance for this as well.

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Wed Oct 12, 2022 3:07 am
I can’t take this. I can’t do this.

I have played my part for so long that- for a time- I tricked myself into thinking I was everything I put into this “MASK” of mine.

I was the femme fatale that captivated me. I walked these halls until the sound of my footsteps was remembered, burned into memory, and brought unease. I wore these robes to look like everyone here, yet I never was. I prayed to the same God, worshiped the same way, and devoted myself just as everyone else did. I wore red lipstick to remind myself that I should smile more and speak less because a woman with red lipstick is never meant to move her mouth too much so that she might not stain her teeth. On that note, I smiled without showing my teeth to show warmth and to seem friendly. I kept my rage to myself. I kept my screaming and hysterics within the confines of my smile, behind my eyes, and within my mind.

My “MASK” had everything they wanted. It was mirrored reflection. When they spoke it, I played God and performed miracles to improve my “MASK” so that it gained what they thought it lacked and lost nothing.

This was how I survived.

But…

What do I do now?

Every step for the past eight years has been to ensure that my sister grew. That she could carelessly find her place in the world. That she could be ostracized from this religion and these people and practices wouldn’t be so devastating- it would be freedom. It would be a relief.

This play and this “MASK” of mine were meant to distract the masses so that she could escape this village and go somewhere else. Then I would draw the curtains, and when they next looked? Like magic, she would be far enough to cross the border of the Land of Fire and go somewhere else. That’s when we would be one again.

She would find someone who respected and loved her for who she was as a person, not who she had been or where she came from. She would have a family if she wanted. Maybe one day, I would see those children.

Once she crossed the border, my part would be over, and so would this play. I could do anything. We could be anything.

I could write her letters without worrying about them being scrutinized or repercussions. I could call her on the phone. I dreamed of that for so long. I dreamed of calling her, hearing her family in the background, and hearing children playing. I dreamed of calling her to say ‘hi,’ and the conversation lasted only seconds because she would have to get off the line and tend to her family. I dreamed of what she would sound like, truly happy.

I have nothing now.



What do I do?

What do people do in this situation? I’ve spent so long acting with this “MASK”, and placing stock in my cottony dreams, that I don’t know how to be a person anymore, let alone a ‘human’. What do I do? What do people do in this situation?

I…

I want to cry—all day. I want to scream until I’m mute or my throat bleeds from dryness, whichever comes first. I want retribution, but I’ll never get it.

I…

I will never be whole.

I could have children, and I would still not be whole. I could be excommunicated tomorrow, finally free of this place, and never be complete. I could return to my family and hug them and never be whole.

I stare out the window most days. From the courtyard, I can see down to the village at a certain angle. I watch them most days. I sit there and watch the Shinobi go about their day. I watch morning give way to day and day give way to night, and all their little lights come on. How? How can they do it?

How can they take my sister from me and then carry on? Like- As nothing happened? How can they carry on like my universe has not imploded? I lose the person I loved most in this entire world, and they can continue to sleep peacefully and wake up, have breakfast, maybe jog like she used to, and be unaffected.

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Why do they get to live while I am dying inside?

This is not what Ninshu taught. This is not what the Sage taught; this is not- it’s not fair.

Are you saying I gave these years away for nothing? That my efforts were worthless?

No.

No, that can’t be right.

I won’t accept it.

I will not accept that it is fair and a decision by the Grand Design.

Fuck that.

I want vengeance. I yearn for retribution. I demand a price be paid that I can’t gauge because how does one put a price on something so priceless? It is against the teachings, but I was dead. I want their death.

But… there are so many of them. Even watching them from here, there are hundreds in that small area I can see. There must be thousands here. And outside these village walls? There are probably more of them. They’re like ants, I’m sure; there is variety and abundance. How will I do it? How long could I quietly kill them in their sleep before someone figured it out?

If I could get out of the temple…I would have a better chance.

Right now, I can only kill them around the temple and get back in quickly. They’ll figure it out.

But…



I have a chance.

I have my life.

I will make another trade.

I will trade what is left of this life of mine to take as many Shinobi lives as I can before I die.

Maybe… I won’t even live long enough to kill one of them. Perhaps a shinobi will kill me first, but it doesn’t matter. None of it matters.

I have to do it.

I can’t live this life knowing they get to be free, roam around, and be happy when they used my sister. They used her, and when they were done, there wasn’t so much as an apology. They just gave her back in a wooden casket.

I… won’t play a part. I won’t need my “MASK” once I’m out of this temple.

I won’t burn this village to the ground.

Perhaps I will burn a single building once I kill everyone in these walls. I want them to see the smoke- the other villages. They may even grow concerned when no one is answering them. It will start small… I will have to be careful.

They will send search parties; it would be best for me and more rational to send a few at a time. When they don’t return, they’ll send more. And more.

Maybe I will be lucky- perhaps, I will find someone to help me. Or, maybe I can find a map to take me to the village that will send out search parties and go there only to see a few.

It may take years, but if that is what I have, that is what I will give.

I want to walk among them and see them in their organic state, in their natural boldness, that is, them living as if my world didn’t freeze in time when I saw my sister’s body.

I cried and said I made a mistake but indeed… no… No, it was them who made a mistake.

She could have lived, and I wouldn’t be in this mental state. She could have lived and been happy, and we would not be here: with me sitting, watching them move around like ants from my window up on high.

When a levee breaks, the dam collapses, and the flood takes everyone off guard.

I will start tomorrow.

I will start finding my way out of these temple restraints and walls and into their village they love so fucking much. I will rise in the ranks quietly as I did here. That’s when I’ll do it.

While they are distracted and watching me move up? They’ll never see the flood come and sweep them out from the side.

My sister could control water… I have not allowed myself much indulgence in those types of things, but I will do it. I will kill them with their twisted magics. I will reinforce the outside of these village walls and say it’s against our enemies but really?

It’s to keep them all in so that they fucking drown when I flood this place to the top of these same walls.

The smell will be pretty bad for a while since I’ll just let the bodies lie about in the heat afterward, but who cares. After all-

They’re only filthy Shinobi, and this is what they bought with their greed and selfishness. They can only blame themselves.

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